Hope Mangiafico (00:00)
So we just wrapped up an episode of revisiting these seven key moments that had such an impact on us throughout this first year of our podcast and we real time whether it was reviewing this or even recording.
continue to get downloads of what continued to impact us or even more information to share with the listeners, which it's always nice to use an overflow for that opportunity. And you had something that you knew you wanted to speak on here. So I'm anxious and I'm eager. I'm not anxious. I am eager to hear about it.
Nikki Humphrey (00:33)
So it came to me, Hope, when you were talking about the last segment, restoring radiance in your spirit and your body. And when we start healing those things with God, trauma, the things we've been through, our past history. And I come from chronic victimhood, trauma background, lots of abuse, lots of that. And it's only been...
Recently in the past couple of years, I've been working on that with the father and now I'm taking it like a million layers deeper to finally like dig up the roots and get it out of my system for good. And for me, working through that with the father, the manifestation of the symptoms on the outside of my body from healing the internal
trauma and dysfunction and all of that made me wonder while Hope was speaking about it, how angry in the inside of my body must have been holding that all in. Because if it's manifesting these gnarly gross symptoms on my skin and on my body as it's detoxing its way through,
Hope Mangiafico (01:45)
Right, exactly.
Nikki Humphrey (01:58)
What kind of havoc was it doing in the inside of my body? That's when people talk about getting all of these diseases and I'm not going to speak it over me, Hope, or anybody listening or watching because I don't even want to say those words out loud. But they get these things and they're like, why I was so healthy. I did this, that and the other thing. It's because you never dug the deep, deep root out. And once you start pulling that out,
Hope Mangiafico (02:02)
Yeah. Yeah.
Nikki Humphrey (02:29)
your body goes through a whoo
cycle to get it out. And it's not cute. It's not pretty. And it's not a whooshing by God. And it's done. It's layer by layer. It's 1 % by 1%. So I'm encouraging anybody who's listening. It's worth it. It's a hard battle. It's been such a struggle for me because I want to go back to some conventional things and just do a quick fix.
Hope Mangiafico (02:32)
Yeah.
Yes.
Nikki Humphrey (02:58)
like we talked about in the episode, we all want the quick fix. Nobody wants to do the hard work. The hard work is so hard.
and not fun, but it's worth it. I promise you. I haven't received full healing yet, but I'm trusting God because we've built our relationship just like we talked about in the episode, that it's going to manifest. It's just going to take a little bit more time.
Hope Mangiafico (03:22)
And I think it's actually such an encouragement to hear because I know from my own journey when I started believing for healing and I started gaining the revelation of
where the physical stuff was actually rooted in and during that digging, like you said, I still was under the thought and impression, whether it was just a false belief I had or was taught, like I really don't know, but I was under the impression that what the father thinks are like that.
And that has made the journey that much more difficult on learning that. And you know, like I said, I don't know really exactly where that belief stems from, but it's very encouraging to know like, wait, that 1%, yes, we've talked about the miracles Jesus did when he was earth side and they were quick. But what if...
Father has actually talked to me about this before and I'm just not remembering it. What if Jesus is one of his many purposes here on earth is to show us what is possible but not to get caught up in the weeds? Kind of like ⁓ when we share in the overflow of the miracles that Jesus did and it was like, it's not about what did this person do wrong or like was it the parents, was it him? And you were talking about how the disciples, they're just like, you know, almost like gossiping. It's like, what if Jesus didn't come for that?
It's not about how quick the miracle was even though we read it like that. The point is it's possible.
And I am still journeying that out myself as well. And where like I'm continuing to gain revelation on some of my yuck I have to dig out because no joke, my story and Nikki's are very different. How they show up in our bodies and the roots are different. But even today, I've made reference in that episode of how much the Lord has given me while doing the reflection here, which is good.
I was almost gonna say embarrassing, but it's actually good. But even the stuff that I thought was good coming out of me was rooted in bad.
my motives. So, and the reason I share that is you wouldn't think motives would necessarily be linked to physical ailments, things manifesting in the body. Well, thanks to other things the Lord has shown me, all of a sudden with Holy Spirit's help, it all comes together with a big whoosh. And this puzzle comes together where it actually is all interconnected, but I couldn't have connected those dots without his help.
And if I had a big, and Nikki talked about this in the episode, but if I had a big, miraculous healing, I would have never had an understanding, nor would I have looked more like my savior.
We claim we want to look like them.
But are we willing to do like Nikki shared her story? It's hard, but are we willing to do that work? Because it is absolutely worth it. But we really gotta sit down and be like, are we willing to say yes to let the flow happen in the holy exchange? And I mean, it was crazy, because when he highlighted this to me, I had to journal it, like type it out to process it. I got stuck on repenting.
for the bad motive because it's been part of my good identity for so long. Yeah, he's saying, hope this is part of your problem that's showing up in the physical.
I had trouble repenting for it because it was part of this hope self-proclaimed identity.
Goes back to what Nikki has said many times in the episode of like, acting victim a lot of times, you you went through life having that as an identity for a while. And sometimes you're like, yes, I wanna get rid of it. But when it's time, that's some of the hard work, the pain that's worth it, but like releasing it.
So just know, it's all worth it, it's all good. And I guess basically accepting that also the 1 % looks different all the time on what that progress looks like.
