Hope Mangiafico (00:00)
Do you have any, I don't know, personal stories or testimonies you can think of of just kind of when you honor the divine order with your own life, what that looks like to see the bodily healing?
Nikki Humphrey (00:16)
I honestly believe that the body, like you said, is giving you a lot of information that for so long, I hated that information because it was stopping me from what I thought I needed to be doing. For example, like running. And there was a time maybe eight years ago where I had all this bad plantar fasciitis and I couldn't run. And I remember
Hope Mangiafico (00:30)
Yes.
Nikki Humphrey (00:41)
Marco Poloing Hope and I was in tears and I was just like, I can't do this. And I thought my running is something that I'm supposed to be doing. It's my time to talk to God and everything. And it's just like, my foot is a mess and like, and that triggered other things happening in my body. And I was so mad and angry instead of using that information to grow and to learn and to change. At that point, I wasn't receptive to that.
So what was I doing? I was finding doctors just to treat the symptom of the pain. And I would go and get quarter zone shots so I could like be able to run for a few more weeks or make it to the start line or whatever it is. But it was just putting a band-aid, it was masking the problem. And what happens when you mask the problem? It shows up in different areas. So my foot was okay, but then my lower back was hurting. And then...
Hope Mangiafico (01:13)
Yes.
Nikki Humphrey (01:35)
My lymph nodes all went crazy and like ballooned up and again, I was just trying to symptom tree and pinpoint like okay, what is that? But I didn't want to take the time to make all of the spiritual the mind this mirror body connections because I thought that was too much work and I just wanted to get back to what I was doing because I thought that's what I needed to do because that's what I was conditioned to do like
Hope Mangiafico (01:44)
It takes time.
Nikki Humphrey (02:05)
my identity was wrapped up into it. But then once I took the time to just take a pause, take a breath, and to realize all these things were interconnected, all these symptoms, everything that was manifesting my body was interconnected with me not being in alignment with my father. And when God wants you to sit down and spend time with him,
Hope Mangiafico (02:26)
That's it.
Nikki Humphrey (02:33)
Like sometimes he forces the issue. He's like you can't do anything else right now Your body is unable to do what you want. So sit down in your Jesus chair and let's figure this out. It's time to have a talk Following that and this was like years later like from the manifestation to the time I actually did it was probably six years
Hope Mangiafico (02:50)
Well, you
Yeah.
Nikki Humphrey (03:00)
in in between, but I found that I only got healing in freedom and permanent alleviation of symptoms. Now things creep up here and there, but it's nothing like it was because I'm reacting to the responses that now kick up and I'm not trying to just
treat the symptom but go to the root cause.
Hope Mangiafico (03:23)
Yeah, we want the easy way out so often and You know, I've heard you share that story even on the podcast You know a couple times of just the relationship with running and you know, sometimes the Lord like force you to stop One way or another but what's coming to mime? with that is
God uses everything and simultaneously because of how he made the world. There is a point where a lack of, I don't know of a better term, of rebellion kicks in and it's so strong that you do just break. There's like a threshold for every form of disobedience or whatever it may be that you hit that and you're done. It's almost like God's, his backup plan.
if we don't listen, right? He's like, well, I did create all these laws that eventually you're gonna break and I don't want you to go that route, but that's what's gonna happen. And we all can attest to that in some way, or form. And a lot of that's rooted, we've talked about this in episodes two, and you've said it, and what we believe is so important. We become so married to what we believe we're supposed to be doing and our identity and all of that.
becomes so much more important and a priority in our life than anything that God says is important.
And we've also talked about time on the podcast before and you you were saying that you didn't want to do it because it would take you away from these things. And basically what I took away from what you said is like, it'll take time and the world has taught like we got to go, go, go. Time is of the essence. And I would invite a listener.
And this is something I've started really doing is anything that you hear as a common saying or just a theme that you see, put a big old question mark by it and be like, if I'm seeing it this much, that must not be true. Across the board, whether it's like what I said in the episode about the two extremes about, hey, your body's perfect, nothing, or your body's so broken, you need to fix it. And down to the little things of...
time is the only non-renewable resource and you hear that and it creates, if you notice it creates a fright or fear, hesitation in you. You need to pause and reconsider what the truth is. It's not wrong, it actually is kind of true, but there's something not truthful in that statement, it's not the full story.
Nikki Humphrey (06:06)
Yeah.
Hope Mangiafico (06:06)
That's you with running. Like running was part
of your story, it just wasn't the full story.
Nikki Humphrey (06:12)
Right, and when you're talking about time, like I had to be in this race, I had to do this thing. But there's a race every day that you could sign up for in reality, like what's so special about one over the other? I think about that in life now, like if I think I missed it or I wanted to be at a certain place or whatever at a certain time, but the world just doesn't stop, time keeps going. And we wanna be in God's perfect timing, not.
Hope Mangiafico (06:17)
Yes.
Yeah.
Nikki Humphrey (06:41)
in what we think our perfect timing should be.
Hope Mangiafico (06:45)
right. That's an ongoing reality to accept is God's perfect timing. Which goes back to two overflows ago, I think. I don't think it was in an episode, but maybe it was in an episode. I can't remember. But I asked you about that, what we can control and what can't we control and how to know. Because that whole thing about God's timing versus mine really hurt my head. It was one of those, like, I felt like I was doing all kinds of gymnastics in my mind.
to understand it.
But at the end of the day, if I step back and think about it, it's because I was so hungry, not in a good way, to just have a dang answer. I just wanted the solution, right? Not the provider of it all.
Nikki Humphrey (07:26)
Mm hmm. Yeah. Mm hmm.
Yes.
Hope Mangiafico (07:35)
which goes back to chasing symptoms and just taking care of symptoms. You just want a solution right here, right now. And not the provision for the the wholeness.
Nikki Humphrey (07:42)
Mm-hmm.
Yeah,
yeah, we want fast food healing. don't want to take the time to cook the meal ourselves.
Hope Mangiafico (08:01)
Boy, it tastes so much better. It really all around tastes so much better. And we can finally, we have enough stories of our own of our journey with the Lord to be like, yeah, that's actually true in every scenario.
Nikki Humphrey (08:04)
much better.
Yes. Same.
Hope Mangiafico (08:20)
⁓ and I'm ever, ever growing.
but it's a sweet journey in totality. Spirit, soul and mind and body. It's a good feeling to start really loving your body. It's a radical thought. When it's such a far-fetched at first that you almost feel like you can never reach it.
Nikki Humphrey (08:37)
It is.
Yeah. Yeah. Just like changing up the mirrors on my house. We have a small house and we had so many full length mirrors. And I swear like the enemy was like in charge of those mirrors.
Hope Mangiafico (08:57)
That's interesting.
That's interesting, that's weird. It's kind of strange to have that many full length.
Nikki Humphrey (09:05)
Yeah, probably we had like four and not that big a intervals like saying, I mean doing and like God, mean, not God, Saint would use it and just be like, I would question everything I would see like all the time. And it was that constant like body checking, body checking, body checking, body checking that like was like making me insane. And finally I'm just like, okay, I'm gonna have one full length mirror. I'm only gonna look in that mirror when I.
have clothes on. Because it was tormenting me, honestly tormenting me. You could be going through, I could be going through my day feeling really good about myself and like look in the mirror and be like, ⁓ feel like not great about myself right now.
Hope Mangiafico (09:36)
Yeah.
Building on that for just a moment because this is actually something I've caught myself more recently doing to which I'm like hope that's insanity But using your example of going about they feeling great and then you get caught off guard by looking in the full-length mirror I have a different scenario same mindset though where when I have that ⁓ wait I don't feel good now. I've had the belief that then my whole day was a lie
Nikki Humphrey (10:08)
Yeah.
Yes. Yes!
Hope Mangiafico (10:22)
That is some trickery if I've ever seen it and I
have caught myself in it recently.
Nikki Humphrey (10:27)
Right?
Same, different issue, but the same. Yes. Just be like, I was thinking this, but ⁓ I look like this, like what? Might've been thinking I look cute, and then I like catch a glimpse and I'm like, ⁓ troll.
Hope Mangiafico (10:32)
Yeah, I don't even have tell you what the issue is, it's the same.
Yeah.
And
that's the reality. This lie I've believed for so long, because we've, you said it in in week three about the mind, our repetitive thoughts strengthen those pathways. So of course, this momentary thought of I'm a troll, I look like garbage is the truth because we've built that pathway so strongly. And I just wanted to share that because even on this journey, the fact that this just happened in a scenario.
in the last week shows how strong that old pathway was. I'm a lot stronger than I was and praise God I've been having more good days and just momentary bad moments. But like, holy cannoli, I am still shocked when those moments happen and I still take a second and question the goodness of my father, the goodness of my day, the goodness of everything that had happened, thinking that I was living in this la la land over here and
It's not reality, which is complete baloney. The goodness, all the greatness is absolutely the reality that God has for you.
Nikki Humphrey (11:57)
Yes, as the posture where you enter into those times, where you where you've had a different cycle, a negative cycle, is changing your posture when you enter into those situations. So now when I go to look at the mirror, when I work at the high school, there's this, there's this like iPad on the wall. And the girls can go and they can record these little things and then that posts on Instagram, super cute. But all these girls always go in front and they do like their fit checks and they're all like posing and like
Hope Mangiafico (12:07)
So true.
Nikki Humphrey (12:27)
So now I'm just like, I'm gonna do my fit check in front of the mirror. And it's just like changing your posture and just going in front of the mirror and just having fun with it instead of going and critiquing it. It's changed so much of that garbage thinking that I was believing before.
Hope Mangiafico (12:45)
gosh, Nikki, now you're opening a whole other can of worms because to compliment that.
Something I noticed that changed in me is I started having fun with my outfits and throwing out the things that I didn't feel good in because I would used to like for certain clothes because I knew they were trendy or whatever and I have in the last year had so much fun putting outfits together. It's a joy I didn't know I had but it was part of the healing and saying goodbye to the things that I just knew I didn't like them.
Nikki Humphrey (13:04)
Right. Yes.
Hope Mangiafico (13:20)
I was holding onto them in the name of other people, opinions.
Nikki Humphrey (13:23)
just
felt weird. might have looked cute, but it just felt weird on.
Hope Mangiafico (13:26)
there are some serious clothes
that just feel weird on and you don't feel good no matter how you try and force it. And so once I got rid of that, I have a full length mirror in my closet. I have so much fun just grabbing shirts, mix and matching. Like it's like a whole new art form has developed as I healed on the inside and it's been awesome.
I just had to share that. You will see so many different areas of your life change when you change that posture, clean out, get rid of things that trip you up. The enemy knows what trip you up. And you're gonna discover all kinds of sides of yourself that are you to the core.
the goodness of God.
