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Hope Mangiafico (01:07)
Hi, I'm Hope.
Nikki Humphrey (01:09)
Hi, I'm Nikki. Welcome to Equip Fellowship where friends become family through Christ. We're two Jesus Loving friends on a mission to share personal stories, resources, and real talk about our triumphs, breakthroughs, struggles, and setbacks. Why? Because we believe you are called to live victoriously and we are here to equip you with Holy Spirit led tools and strategies to strengthen your faith, transform your mindset, and walk boldly in God's promises. Because here's the truth.
Hope Mangiafico (01:29)
you
Nikki Humphrey (01:38)
you have been given great and precious promises by God. So grab your coffee, lean in and let's grow together. It's time to step into everything God has for you and to step out of everything that you need to leave behind in 2025.
Hahaha
Hope Mangiafico (02:00)
Love
it. That's so good. I've said it before. I love when we make those changes. you know, this episode will be released about middish January. And so it's so good to remember and revisit what we don't want to go back to, you know. You even said that, I think, in the last episode to some degree of like, were like, man, life's been so busy. I haven't been able to sit down and kind of do like a check in, right? And so I know a couple of weeks into January, it's like, you're just getting started, but it's also
Still, never too early to make sure you're leaving the stuff behind that you don't wanna bring forth that you know is misaligned with where God's leading you, right?
Nikki Humphrey (02:37)
That is so true. And like you said Hope, the timing that this comes out is perfect because usually December is so crazy and hectic and you're trying to do all the things and everything and it's hard to do a personal audit when you're in the midst of all of that stuff going on. So now is the perfect time to just sit down, take a breath and do that personal audit for yourself.
Hope Mangiafico (02:50)
It is!
Do you know what I'm just realizing or thinking while you're saying that? I think we started reading the Bible in the year around like the middle of January and it's because I think that exact same thing like once you, once you're like, wait, just because it's January 1 doesn't mean I have to have it all figured out on January 1. And I think culturally, just as you were speaking, Nikki, I'm thinking about this. We always think like, okay, we have Christmas and between the Christmas and New Year, we got this time where we can,
Nikki Humphrey (03:14)
Yes!
Hope Mangiafico (03:32)
get our lives together, figure these things out, but it's like, but because it's such an awkward time, it really isn't a great time.
Nikki Humphrey (03:40)
Yeah.
Hope Mangiafico (03:42)
And so the middle of January, I don't know, I think it's great and I just remembered that that's when we started actually reading the Bible was mid-January.
Nikki Humphrey (03:51)
totally that we broke off last year that we had to have everything in place by January 1st and we're just like it doesn't matter when you start just start when you're ready
Hope Mangiafico (03:54)
Yeah.
Amen. That's so freeing.
Nikki Humphrey (04:05)
Yes.
Hope Mangiafico (04:07)
That's so good. And honestly, it's just good for me to even remember because of, that one week period between Christmas and January 1, it's like, could, let me just sit down and, and honestly, if I think back, it always felt very forced.
Nikki Humphrey (04:25)
Well,
under this, it was force, but pressure. I always felt this pressure that I had to have these lists ready and like, Ruka and I had to sit down and get our goals in place. And Josephine had to make a poster to put up in her room and like all these things. They were like, we're all sitting down and we're all gonna do it right now. You're not in the right heart posture. You're not in the right head space to listen when you're trying to like muscle your way through.
Hope Mangiafico (04:31)
Yeah. Yeah.
you
Yes!
No.
Nikki Humphrey (04:54)
of like how you want to close out the year and how you want to start the next one.
Hope Mangiafico (04:58)
That's the truth, man. So I'm excited. ⁓ So basically, I think our thoughts behind today's episode is we're just going to be sharing what the Lord's kind of put on our hearts as reminders of what we're leaving behind in 2025 as we're starting that journey into 2026. Yeah. I will, ⁓ I'll mention my first one ⁓ because it was very interesting. I mentioned on the previous podcast episode about the retreat.
which was great to have at the end of the year that my mom and I attended. And it's where we've talked about a lot on the podcast thoughts and where they come from and all that, right? And my first aha with that came from this ministry years ago. And so I felt like I was supposed to like leave behind a 2025 listening to the planted thoughts for extended periods of time, because you you think, oh, a little thought place, five seconds, 30 seconds, but then that extends.
beyond that. And I had given a place ⁓ for those thoughts to continue to exist in my mind. And then it kind of became a part of me for majority of 2025. And that was a big aha I had actually at the end of the retreat. ⁓ I told them, I was like, I'm just now realizing there's like a spirit of unloving that I allowed to talk to me the entire year 2025, the entire year. And I didn't even catch it because
once you stop catching it, you're like, no, it's like the victim mentality you talk about all the time, but I didn't realize it was a victim mentality because I became basically like one with it. So I don't want that anymore. So the specific ones are the unloving of self, accusations and bitterness towards others and self, and judgments of others, and then rejection across the board. And I know that sounds almost like probably
Nikki Humphrey (06:48)
Hmm.
Hope Mangiafico (06:55)
overkill and daunting, but when you get familiar, when you pause and maybe even journal, right? As I'm saying this, what rejection sounds like to me, what bitterness sounds like in my brain, what unloving actually looks like, because that's very vague, but you can figure it out for yourself, right? It actually is very easy if you nip it in the butt right out of the gate. So I'm saying no to listening to that stuff in 2026 and bye to that from 2025.
Nikki Humphrey (07:29)
So mine kind of goes with that. kind of different, maybe adjacent. And we did a podcast on this. I'm leaving behind the belief that I have to earn God's love. I was still a lot through 2025 believing, like you said, those words, those thoughts, those things would have been spoken over me, what other people are doing, the whole thing of like, I have to do certain things in order to earn.
Hope Mangiafico (07:35)
Mm.
Nikki Humphrey (07:58)
God's love. And we talked about the filter in my heart and all of that in the previous podcast, but that's
Hope Mangiafico (08:02)
Yeah. ⁓
Nikki Humphrey (08:06)
a big one for me.
Hope Mangiafico (08:07)
So to compliment that, you know what's really interesting? You may not agree with this from what you just shared, but I have always kind of, always is not the right term, but often realized I felt like I had to perform, right, and to receive the love. And again, during this retreat, because you just kind of start getting downloads from the Holy Spirit during that time, I realized that
adjacent, I guess you could say, to feeling like you need to earn God's love and do things, I was actually afraid of God leaving me as like a judgment. I would have never in a million years had thought that that's how was living my life if I didn't perform. He would leave.
And I was like, God, I think that actually hit my heart more than being I need to perform for love. They're the same thing. But when I realized I was performing, because I didn't want to lose my God, I was like, ugh. What? So I can agree with what you're saying, and that at the end of the day, they're all the wrong perspective, because.
Nikki Humphrey (09:03)
Mm-hmm.
Mm-hmm.
Hope Mangiafico (09:21)
We even talk about it all the time, right? Like he's our father and we love him, he loves us. But there's just something about that truth hidden here and like allowing it, talk about the filter, right? Allowing it to just.
Embrace your heart.
Nikki Humphrey (09:38)
Yeah,
yes. And I wrote, for me, I said, for a long time, even while walking with Jesus, there was a quiet belief. So it wasn't loud. wasn't, yeah, it wasn't blatant. It was like me sitting down and figuring it out. There was a quiet belief lingering in my heart that I had to prove myself, that I had to show up perfectly, lead well enough, love big enough, and heal fast enough.
Hope Mangiafico (09:48)
Yes, yes, yes!
No
Nikki Humphrey (10:05)
But God has been so patient in reminding me when working through this that his love is not a reward, it's a foundation. And I was like, bingo. Because Romans 8 one says, there's now no condemn, I'm gonna repeat that. Sometimes words, hope and I, Bible words, girl. There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. So in 2025.
I'm leaving behind in this area, striving. I'm leaving behind spiritual performance. And we've talked about this in the podcast, like doing all the things so we can be a good Christian. I'm leaving behind the lie that I need to be more to be loved. And I'm stepping into rest, real rest. Another topic we talk about a lot. And then the kind that trust God's affection is secure.
Hope Mangiafico (10:49)
Okay.
Nikki Humphrey (11:04)
that it's not up for debate. It is steady. It is
strong. It is secure. And it's going nowhere.
Hope Mangiafico (11:13)
That's so good. I feel that. And you know, it's so wild that we wrestle with that because I heard it once said, like, or presented to me, I should say, like, how did you get saved? You got saved because you knew that he loved you when you were yet a sinner. So how could he love you any less once you said yes to him? And I'm like,
Well, dang, that makes a lot of sense.
Nikki Humphrey (11:40)
Yes. It makes a lot of sense, but sometimes it's not clear. But you're not included in all of that.
Hope Mangiafico (11:51)
No, truly, it's- it's-
Nikki Humphrey (11:54)
And I think sometimes when you have a past where you've been consistently hurt by people that you loved, it just naturally makes you question sometimes that you have to do things to earn it because maybe that's how love developed in the
Hope Mangiafico (11:58)
Mm-hmm.
Absolutely.
Well, so that feeds really well into kind of like, I guess this actually taps into the first thing I said about not listening to planted thoughts or leaving behind the listening to the planted thoughts. And what I put was, ⁓ this is kind of like ignoring what Ephesians 4 22 through 24 says, which says putting off the old man and putting on the new. So for 2026, my understanding of who is telling me these things that aren't truth,
Nikki Humphrey (12:34)
Mm-hmm.
Hope Mangiafico (12:41)
even if they're little hope problems or rooted in trauma is key. I am not a victim of the schemes of Satan or the kingdom of darkness that's happened in the past. And that was my 2026 understanding is old man is gone. Just like I said about, we said yes to Jesus because we understood he loved us. So he's gonna still love us later, right? God is still gonna love us. So old man hurts, trauma, ways of thinking, they're
under, they're gone, there's new us. So will we accept in 2026 we are a new creation?
Nikki Humphrey (13:18)
Yes. That's good.
Hope Mangiafico (13:23)
and not ignore that we've been through things. We've talked about that before, but like, those aren't us.
Nikki Humphrey (13:31)
Right, absolutely not. No.
Hope Mangiafico (13:34)
And I was starting in 2025, almost like re-identifying with those things.
Mm-mm.
Nikki Humphrey (13:44)
Yeah. Nope.
No more.
Hope Mangiafico (13:49)
Seriously. So that fed so well what you said into, I guess, part two of my first one.
Nikki Humphrey (13:59)
So I'm gonna go into my number two. So again, these aren't new revelations people, but it's gonna in a different way today. So two, I said, I'm leaving behind the need to be everyone, everything to everyone.
Hope Mangiafico (14:00)
Yeah.
No!
Nikki Humphrey (14:17)
And I said, this one's tender for me. It's so tender because I love people deeply. Like that's a spiritual gifting that God has given me that I love people really deeply. But there have been seasons where I've carried responsibilities that weren't mine over and over and over again, where I tried to fix, rescue or hold together only what God could heal.
Not what Nikki could heal, not what big Nikki, little Nikki, all the Nickies could heal, only God could heal. In 2025, I am leaving behind the over-functioning habit to fix people. I am leaving behind guilt-driven yeses. I'm leaving behind the pressure to be the Holy Spirit in other people's lives. I'm resigning my position.
Hope Mangiafico (14:52)
You
Mmm.
Nikki Humphrey (15:17)
and I'm letting Holy Spirit do his job, okay? This
Hope Mangiafico (15:23)
I feel that.
Nikki Humphrey (15:24)
girl is retiring, because I've done it. And Galatians 6.5 reminds us that each one of us should carry our own load. I will love, I will show up, but I will trust God to do what only he can do.
Hope Mangiafico (15:41)
I like the way you presented that in the beginning. You over-functioning habits. Is that what you said? That's so good though because there is a place to help.
Nikki Humphrey (15:46)
Yes. Yes.
Mm-hmm.
Hope Mangiafico (15:54)
But over-functioning is like you've extended what you were supposed to you extended the gift beyond what God actually supplied you with
Nikki Humphrey (16:03)
Yes, because then we're taking on, like I said, the role of the Holy Spirit. And that's not our job is to point to those tools, not to be a tool, point to the tools.
Hope Mangiafico (16:14)
And it's funny how you started it too of like these aren't new revelations. And I hope as you said that, that the listener really understands like that this is the true journey with the Lord is he's so patient going back to your number one, so patient, so loving that it will start to seem repetitive but it's not out of condemnation. He's like, come on daughter, get this part. You can do it.
Get it. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. And then he's like, heaven hype squad, get going. She's getting it.
And I think that's actually a sweet reminder to me as you were speaking, like I almost feel like the softening in my heart of like that truth landing in me of he's so patient that it's okay that it seems repetitive and that's actually very freeing because then we can throw away our laundry list of problems we have, laundry list of we're not good enoughs.
Nikki Humphrey (17:11)
Hmm? Yes.
Hope Mangiafico (17:13)
It's simple for him. That's so, so good. And we've talked about how when we're misaligned with our giftings or overextending or being like Holy Spirit, how it manifests on all levels of us and including our physical bodies. And so like you seeing that fruit, I'm sure into 2026. And the reason I'm even mentioning that because
Nikki Humphrey (17:17)
Not easy for us. Simple for him.
Hope Mangiafico (17:43)
I know that's kind of repetitive conversation. I noticed, historically, I would always get sick around Christmas. Granted, I am taking some supplements right now, which I think is really helping my immune system. But even still, when I went home, certain things started showing up. And...
I realized that's still God like helping me realize like, hey, hope this part of you isn't surrendered fully to me. As an example, you know, addressing what you said, I always felt like I was a solution person for every person. So when I got in a very specific environment where I historically say, let me go around, let me do these things, my sugar, my blood sugar went wild. I felt lethargic.
you know, when it was because I almost feel like you get hit harder with it the more free you get because you're more sensitive to it. And that's also encouraging though because historically, I'll even say most of 2025 when I would see a physical manifestation of disobedience or of, you know,
over-functioning habits and stuff, I would think I was the problem, but it really is just the Lord trying to get my attention or he will use it to get my attention to realign with him. And so our bodies reveal that progress, I think, on so many ways, our nervous system, right? All of those things. And so it's exciting to think about you and I both have had different physical challenges that we've talked about on the podcast. And I feel 2026, we're going to just like
Nikki Humphrey (19:22)
and
Hope Mangiafico (19:28)
see an uptick big time in our health because of these things we're leaving behind.
Nikki Humphrey (19:36)
Yeah, that's so good. I feel the same way like when as you're talking and I'm like, those are like alarm bells from the Lord like, check yourself girl. And we've said, I've said this time and time again when I was running like when I was making running my God, he took me out of it. Like I was so injured, there's no way that I could run for a very long period of time. And that's like alarm bells. It's like, you focusing on? What are you doing?
Hope Mangiafico (19:44)
Yes!
I
That's great.
Nikki Humphrey (20:04)
And sometimes we don't want to hear that, but we need those loving corrections. And we, and I think you and I are getting good at, like you said, like heeding to those warnings, not pushing through, not trying to like solve all the things and like, why is this happening? And just be like, ⁓ okay.
Hope Mangiafico (20:13)
Yes.
Heating to the warnings, that's exactly it. And even if it's me stepping into the bathroom to have a moment, and I do that, ⁓ because I'm like, I can't sometimes when you're in an old environment doing old habits, right? You can't really, you hear the warning, but then like processing and re-evaluating, you gotta step aside sometimes.
Nikki Humphrey (20:29)
Yes.
especially
if you're around people who try to help and fix you too. I've been in environments like that, like something's happening and then you got people, have you tried this or do this or like all the, and then it's just like, then you're getting way off course, cause then you're depending on somebody else to fix you. And again, not going to the Lord and being like, okay, this is what's happening. Why is this happening? What's going on?
Hope Mangiafico (21:13)
That is so true. Man, so yeah, well, you're leaving in 2025. I feel that I'm in alignment with, I'm saying yes to that too. And all of it's like overflow of leaving that behind is gonna be great. I love that.
Nikki Humphrey (21:26)
Hmm?
Hope Mangiafico (21:31)
So this is funny. So your number two feed's kind of my number two pretty good because I want to leave behind in 2025 doubts of Romans 831, which is if God is for me, who can stand against me?
Because no matter which version of us is stepping out and trying to do all these things and fix all these things, it's because there's might be fear of not us doing these things, right? But if God is for us, who can be against us? Why do we try to push through? And this thing has been beside me for, you know.
Nikki Humphrey (21:46)
you
Yeah.
Hope Mangiafico (22:12)
Think about it and I wrote this down downstairs and I'm like hope you've been sitting beside that scripture the Lord just gave you the entire time
Nikki Humphrey (22:24)
For of you who listening, hope is holding up a cross with that scripture verse on it.
Hope Mangiafico (22:30)
That sits right beside me. Thank you for thinking about the listeners. ⁓ Yeah, that always sits here. But here's the thing. It's a very commonly quoted scripture. And until the Holy Spirit convicts you, or are on hay hope, you've been overextending yourself, over-functioning these gifts because you're thinking people can stand against you because you don't believe God is for you. Going back to your number one and kind of little bit of mine, we felt like we had to earn God's love.
Nikki Humphrey (22:33)
Yes.
Hope Mangiafico (23:02)
or in other people's love. This scripture dismantles it all. I'm done doubting of my father's abilities. And if I have doubt, I give him permission to say, hey Hope, who am I? Remember who I am? Do you remember I created you? And all these other people that are also my children, because that's the other catch. He loves all of us equally, so it's like.
Nikki Humphrey (23:03)
Hmm? Yes.
Yeah.
Hope Mangiafico (23:28)
Those aren't your enemies, you gotta reevaluate this whole situation. I don't wanna doubt it anymore.
Nikki Humphrey (23:36)
so good. That's so good. I think a lot of people needed to hear that right now because a lot of times, like we've been talking this whole, we're carrying people with us. We're doing this. We're gauging what we do and the reaction of others or all of that. like, we'll go back to yours, but my number three is I'm leaving behind comparison and quiet self doubt, which feeds into that.
Hope Mangiafico (23:53)
Yes.
Mmm.
Nikki Humphrey (24:05)
scripture also, if God is for us, who can be against us? And if we turn that lens and look into ourselves, a lot of times we're against ourselves.
Hope Mangiafico (24:16)
Absolutely! A thousand percent!
Nikki Humphrey (24:19)
So we're not only comparing to others, I don't always compare to others, sometimes I compare to myself and where I think, I talked about in the last episode of where I should be.
Hope Mangiafico (24:32)
Yeah, ugh.
Nikki Humphrey (24:33)
God's like, stop judging yourself. I'm the judge. I'm the judge. You don't need to judge yourself. Stop doing my job because you don't do a good job at it.
Hope Mangiafico (24:46)
Yes, and to compliment what you just said about the I'm the judge, that used to be to a lot of people. I'm sure that hearing that can sound a little scary. But one thing I heard from Pastor Joe way back in the day that resonated with me so much and helped me read scripture differently is God judges from love. So when you see all the stuff in the Old Testament, you're like, the, you know, the wrath of God and the judgment of God.
Nikki Humphrey (25:05)
Yes.
Hope Mangiafico (25:13)
Well, if you actually read the whole context and view it from God does judgment from love, you actually start to see judgment differently. And so going to what you're saying about the Lord telling you that, he's like, I'm the judge, but it's not so much like I'm judging you, Nikki, that you're not moving fast enough. It's filled with love and encouragement and that he has a goal in mind for you that is filled with more blessings.
than you could ever imagine. That's what it means that he's the judge.
Just for anyone that gets confused by that because it has been mistaul or just misunderstood.
I'm so glad we're doing this today because I'm learning that I would like to leave behind 2025.
that I need truly continual reminders of who God is. And we talk about visiting history and stuff, but it's like, and that's part of the puzzle. I think I mentioned that in the last episode, but it's these conversations where it starts just coming out of my mouth. So we started conversing of like, whoa, wait, you are, you judge with love. You're pursuing us. You're for us. Like,
It lights me up and deepens my... That's a weird word to say. I think I just made this word up. My childship
Nikki Humphrey (26:55)
⁓
Yes.
Hope Mangiafico (26:58)
of him as father,
embracing that.
Because at the end of the day, all of the things we've said, it's because we still don't feel like he's a good father and we are his daughters, his children.
He's the best father in the world.
Nikki Humphrey (27:19)
I love Childship because I just got a download. When you are a child, when you are in that Childship stage, like everything's limitless. There's no boundaries. There's no cap. There's no, you can be a fairy princess. You could be whatever it is you want. You just look at the world and you're just like, yes, yes. But it's when we start putting the limitations.
Hope Mangiafico (27:22)
Okay, go.
Yeah.
Nikki Humphrey (27:48)
on God's love for us or God's plan for us or God's whatever for us, we lose that. We lose that awe and we lose that dreaming and we lose that excitement. Like we put a cap on God and we can't. With our childship, it's just like, yes, we're just accepting it. We're not questioning. We're not trying to figure it out. We're just going for it with God.
Hope Mangiafico (27:49)
Yeah. Yeah.
My eyes are watering. don't know if I'm hitting a new level of understanding that. like, why are you, you're fired up and I'm like, I'm crying. What is happening? My eyes are watering. But that's so true. And I think what also stirs the sadness but joy about what you just shared is like, have, all of us have fallen in the trap of believing the limitations. And that is so heartbreaking.
Nikki Humphrey (28:39)
Yes, bingo.
Just last week, people. Just wasn't that long ago.
Hope Mangiafico (28:46)
No. Oh no,
not at all. No. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I say people and it's all of us, including myself, and that breaks my heart too. Just because the more you start to understand Father God's heart, you're like, I can't believe I ever doubted it. And that, you know, with God all things are possible, like, but...
Nikki Humphrey (28:50)
Mm-hmm. Yeah.
Hope Mangiafico (29:10)
That childship allows you to actually believe that in your heart. It's like a never-ending expanse of possibilities like you're saying. That's the childlike faith attached to you with all things, God, all things are possible.
Nikki Humphrey (29:24)
Yes, and of God before us, who can be against us?
Hope Mangiafico (29:33)
It is good. Oh, I can't wait, in 2026 being more childlike because we know that scripture says to be like little children. We all can quote, most people listening to this podcast can probably quote that, but why aren't we doing it? Is it we're afraid people are against us? We're embarrassed?
you know, doing comparison, things that you had mentioned were, you know, bitter about what's happening, which again are adult limitations. I don't know if children really know true bitterness, you know, like because they may commit it as a sin once or twice or whatever, but they haven't taken it on as an identity like we have.
Be a child in 2026. Yes.
Nikki Humphrey (30:30)
So I'm going to go back to my number three. I'm
leaving behind comparison and quiet self-doubt. Again, comparison is sneaky, especially when you're serving, leading, creating, and pouring out. There are moments when you're doing all those things and you look around and you can wonder like, am I doing enough? Am I behind? Does my voice matter? Does that person's voice matter more? Am I doing
is not good enough? Is it not flashy enough? Is it not legit enough? Is it the vibe? it right? You know, like all these things like can flood in and God gently reminded me that I didn't create myself. God created me. And again, going way back to the beginning, God doesn't make jumps.
Hope Mangiafico (31:05)
Yeah.
That is... Yeah.
Nikki Humphrey (31:26)
period. He
doesn't make junk. So why am I thinking that what I'm creating out of what he created me to be, why am I thinking it's junk? It's not. It may be different. It may be going to a different audience. It may be for a different purpose, but it's good.
Hope Mangiafico (31:47)
Yeah. Amen.
Nikki Humphrey (31:49)
period because Psalm 139 says, I am fearfully and wonderfully made, not duplicated, not replaceable.
So it's good to be different.
It's good to be not the leader, not at the forefront, not the guru, not all these things because that's a slippery slope.
What we're doing is good, period, because God doesn't make junk. So I'm leaving behind comparison. I'm leaving behind minimizing what God has asked me to steward. I'm
Hope Mangiafico (32:17)
Mm. Mm.
Nikki Humphrey (32:30)
leaving behind the habit of questioning my calling when it looks different than someone else's.
Hope Mangiafico (32:38)
questioning your calling. I think we all can do that. Your calling or just where you are in that moment. Like one of the most freeing things that I think we all could benefit from is believing in your heart of hearts deep down inside you're exactly where you're supposed to be. Which not just like physically like in this chair right now, but holistically what you're creating, right?
the conversation you're having, who you're in front of. If we could settle on that, which also feeds into Romans 8.31, because that means God's for you. So what are you worried about? Who's to get you?
Nikki Humphrey (33:19)
Yes, exactly.
Hope Mangiafico (33:25)
I feel that though. ⁓ And like the fear of messing up or that because the step you took isn't looking as you expected, did you mess up? And that becomes more self-reliant versus, you know, saying, okay, God doesn't make junk, but what about me? Am I creating, am I making myself junky? I mean, I've had those thoughts.
Okay God, hear you like, you you made me as a daughter, you've done all these great things, but what am I doing wrong that's hindering and dampering what you've done? And there can be a place for that question, I guess, when it comes to like sin, but the heart behind it, I know for me often is more of that self-condemnation and the things that are not at all of God and of conviction. If that makes sense.
Nikki Humphrey (34:19)
It makes complete sense. And I don't know if you said this, Hope, or somebody else in the last week said this to me, but it's like, if we spend as much time scrolling our Bible as social media, we would feel so different about ourselves. And I was like, yep. Yep. And that's why I'm so grateful that we are doing the Bible in the year, because like you said last week, we're taking on all the...
Hope Mangiafico (34:36)
Absolutely.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Nikki Humphrey (34:49)
Whether we're utilizing it right now or not, it's with us.
Hope Mangiafico (34:52)
Yes,
that's the catch. That's the key is release the pressure of needing to utilize it all right now, because gosh knows, and it happened with me, but it's in us and I feel confident in that. And I know you're similar to me while we're reading, even if we're not understanding, like we're taking notes, we're highlighting, we're writing. So when we open it again, we'll have notes on it that will bring us back into this place. And then he'll be able to say, okay, now we're gonna go deeper in this. Now's the time.
Nikki Humphrey (34:58)
Yes.
Hope Mangiafico (35:21)
And that is so cool.
So good.
I love it so much. Yeah, social media. Well, it goes back to the dopamine thing. Someone actually brought that up in the family when we were in town talking about dopamine and social media. like, should have been like, you know, let's start podcasts. We talk about this whole, like, I think in one of episodes, was like, it's a dopamine problem. Like, that's the problem. But as soon as you open your Bible, which I don't have mine right here. As soon as you open your Bible and you start reading, it's like, because it's a living word,
Nikki Humphrey (35:34)
you
Hope Mangiafico (35:58)
It just upticks your dopamine somehow, you know, no matter which part you're opening, just because it's a living word.
Nikki Humphrey (36:03)
Yeah.
Yes. And again, just this, you know, this was only Tuesday, so maybe Sunday, Monday. Again, I'm going through my social media and unfollowing or not looking at those accounts that make me question who God created me to be.
Hope Mangiafico (36:21)
Yeah. Cleaning house is a great idea.
Nikki Humphrey (36:24)
I'm
the house. I'm cleaning, I told Hope before we inside regard, I'm cleaning off a bookshelf, going through things that, you know, they don't serve me anymore and getting rid of it and just, that leaves room, you know, whether it's in your heart, on social media, in your home, for new things to come in, to take root.
Hope Mangiafico (36:28)
Okay.
Yeah.
Absolutely.
Well, you know, scripture says like there's a time and season for everything and it's like if we could view all aspects of our life as seasonal so that we get in the habit of cleaning house, cleaning social media because they may have served you at one time. We've talked about this, but it's scriptural to be like whatever you were.
reading or utilizing then most likely will not continue to serve you because you are different. Praise God. And your one unfollow isn't gonna dismantle their entire, you know, following or their business. Like, no, like you're not holding them up.
Nikki Humphrey (37:12)
Hmm? Yes. Yes.
Yes.
Yeah. Not at all.
Hope Mangiafico (37:29)
So I think that's great. My number three, I only put it as one word and I didn't get a chance to really dive deep in it. There's some obvious to it, but I think it's multi-layered, but it is isolation. And we've talked about how in 2025 I was in my house a lot and I do believe God was doing something.
Nikki Humphrey (37:46)
Mmm. Mm-hmm.
Hope Mangiafico (37:59)
But simultaneously in that, I isolated my mouth. It's kind of a weird statement to make. But it's like I was going to the Lord, I was journaling all of this stuff, but I didn't bring people along at all. And so even the victories, I kind of like shoved down. You know, I've shared the most with you, but even then, I was still more reserved, more quiet.
And I think that made me an easier target for the thoughts and things that I said I was leaving behind in 2025. Because I didn't feel well. So I do know like physically going out and doing all this stuff, like I didn't have it in me, but I still could have been less isolated in other forms that would have helped strengthen me. But again, I think in 2025, my doubts.
of if God is for me, who can be against me or against us as Romans 831 says and I believe through isolation, I became more nervous sharing what I was going through, whatever it may be and started believing the development or whatever God was doing was creating this almost like divide.
And so it felt like me versus them kind of thing. That's probably the right way to say it. And that naturally will unfold through isolation if you're not careful. And isolation can be sneaky. And you know that we've talked about this. ⁓ And I'm still trying to figure out what part was like, I really felt like God was saying, hey, hope, withdraw from certain things for sure. And then what was like, I overextended that to other areas.
Nikki Humphrey (39:44)
Mm-hmm.
Hope Mangiafico (39:51)
But I want to in 2026 because I believe God is for me and because I know that I am a new man, the old man is gone. I can be confident in whatever I do, opening my mouth, speaking of what God's doing in my life. If the Holy Spirit's telling me to speak something, do that with confidence.
all around.
Nikki Humphrey (40:15)
I love this so much because in 2025, I came out of isolation. And it's scary for sure because going out and being vulnerable and connecting with people and all of that.
can be, lack of better term, weird, or like you gotta get used to a new normal and things like that. a tool that I've used, I probably said this on here before because yesterday I had to go pick up my daughter from somewhere and I was going to interact with this person that, woo, it's not been so good lately. And I use this trick as like, okay, I'm just bringing God with me. It's gonna be a two minute interaction, but I want to.
Hope Mangiafico (40:41)
Yeah.
Yeah.
Nikki Humphrey (41:05)
Stuart, what God gave me. Well, I want to be Jesus to this person. I'm extending forgiveness and not all of this is going to go down in a two minute conversation picking up your daughter, but I wanted to go in there with an open heart, not a closed heart posture. And I wanted to just be a light for those two minutes. And I think that's something when you're coming out this year, you know, coming out of your isolation, that you're not alone. And you know that.
Hope Mangiafico (41:11)
Yeah. Thank
Nikki Humphrey (41:35)
I know that, but sometimes we just need that like reminder right there. Like I'm not alone. God's with me. God, your words, not my words. Direct my steps, direct my words, my body language, whatever it is.
Hope Mangiafico (41:39)
Yeah.
Absolutely. And that dismantles so much of the things that we continue to struggle with when you keep stepping out and that, ⁓ yeah, so anyways, there's so much I think that goes into that that I'm gonna dive into a little bit more with the Lord because I...
Nikki Humphrey (41:57)
and
Hope Mangiafico (42:09)
I didn't like the feeling, right? Like I saw so much breakthrough and you mentioned, you saw how God was rescuing me from so much and he did. And that's why it was my word for 2025. But simultaneously, I didn't like how I felt majority of the year. And I believe it was rooted in that isolation aspect ⁓ that only gets broken through.
like your example of going out saying, okay, God is for me. I'm bringing him with me. Like, and reminding yourself of that as truth, even if you're not believing it fully in your heart yet, it's the truth. It's the truth. That's why we're reading scripture. It's the truth. So yeah, it's awesome though that 2025, I don't think I realized that that was really like your year of breaking free of isolation. So that's awesome. It's exciting.
Nikki Humphrey (42:46)
Yes.
Okay.
then I had a number four, but I feel this is for both of us, hope, because I think as soon it comes out of my mouth, you're be like, yep. I'm leaving behind the idea that healing has a deadline.
Hope Mangiafico (43:09)
Mm-hmm
Hmm.
Nikki Humphrey (43:16)
grief, growth, healing, they don't move on a calendar. All those things. It's not linear. You can't put a start date on it. You can't put an end date on it. So this year, I'm going to remind myself that healing isn't about getting over something. It's about letting God meet you in it. I'm leaving behind timelines. I'm leaving behind the pressure to be
Hope Mangiafico (43:33)
Mmm.
Nikki Humphrey (43:44)
the past of things and I'm still walking I'm Let me say that again. I'm leaving behind the pressure to be past things that I'm still walking with Jesus with Like because people you're slung it over that you're still dealing with that like no I'm still walking through it with Jesus not by myself I'm leaving behind the judgment towards my own healing process because Psalms 34 18 says
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted. If he is close, then I am not failing. I am being healed.
Hope Mangiafico (44:15)
.
That's beautiful. He is close and I am not failing. I am being healed. That's so good. And you know, you're right. That is a perfect one for both of us because I had recently that revelation, almost like revelation slash peace of believing that is true. And the reason that really settled in me is again,
that retreat, everyone is speaking about their healing journey that they are either still on or they did receive quick healing, but there's still layers of the healing. And so they're like, hey, I had to walk this out and do this. But they were saying it was so much joy and they were enjoying the journey because Father God is with us. And they understood that they were children of God.
that he was walking with us. ooh, say the scripture one more time at the end because your add-on to that was so beautiful.
Nikki Humphrey (45:17)
Yes,
it's Psalm 3418 says, the Lord is close to the brokenhearted. If he is close, then I am not failing, I'm being healed.
Hope Mangiafico (45:27)
I love that. And it's healed on every level. Like that's something else that I think both of us have been on a journey of understanding for years is like, it's all of it. It's the mental, emotional, the physical, the spiritual, it's all of those things. And he loves the journey.
Nikki Humphrey (45:47)
And those, you know, people will be like, well, I don't feel like I'm being healed, because I would have been one of those. But it's just those little micro moments of healing that compound. I think sometime we disregard those micro moments, those flashes, those blips, those things, those... That's something happening. Those weren't a one-off. That wasn't a...
Hope Mangiafico (45:52)
Absolutely. Me too.
Guys
Mmm.
Nikki Humphrey (46:14)
it just happened today. It's never going to happen again. It's that it's your body working with God and like getting back online and like figuring out a whole healing because it's complex and it's layered and it's like some people get it automatically, but some it just takes a little bit more work, but we can't discount those little blips of like you feel it then you're like, I hope it doesn't go away. Just like I've been one to say that a lot like, ⁓
But what if I wake up tomorrow? But just revel in those blips. Because that's the healing.
Hope Mangiafico (46:50)
That's so good and that is the healing.
And remembering that as we've talked about many times, God, in the last episode, talking about progress, is about building character. Healing stays when the character is pure. And I have noticed when I have, I don't know, maybe seen ministries or a certain minister or apostle or whatever doing all this healing stuff,
The part that was missing was they may have gotten free and gotten some healing, but will it stick? We don't know the answer and that's not their job. Their job was the people come, they heal. Great. But the sticking relies on your character and your alignment with the Father's creation within you. And that should actually be the encouragement. At least it has become more encouraging to me of, okay, God.
I've been itching for this to be gone, but I want it to be gone forever and I understand how we are a triune being in total that if it gets zapped out, it's gonna right back in. If it came in because of X, Y, and Z, right? There's too many examples to give, but ⁓ that is very comforting and goes back to his
love being that foundation of it all. And those people at that retreat, I think, and I know I've made so many references to that retreat recently, because I almost forgot, because it had been a year and some change as I was there, how joy-filled these people are to be on the healing journey. And if you get exposed enough to joy-filled people that are on the journey to healing, you're like, yeah, let's do it.
I don't want to lose that. I want to joy, joy in every moment of the journey into 2026 to revel in the blip. I want to do that. I love the way you said that because it made me think of actually like a dog rolling on the grass, you know, for just a second. Yeah, let me enjoy this. And then they're up and
Nikki Humphrey (49:03)
Yes. Yes.
Yeah. Yeah.
Hope Mangiafico (49:17)
on to the next thing, but they enjoyed that couple of seconds.
Nikki Humphrey (49:20)
That's right.
Hope Mangiafico (49:23)
So you're right, I think number four was for both of us. ⁓ And I'm expectant. My word for 2026 is daughter. And when I was at this retreat, someone spoke over me that they heard the Lord say, rejoice and be glad. So like my statement of my back on my phone is daughter.
comma, rejoice and be glad for next year. Because isolation led me to not be in joy or be glad or to enjoy the little blips of micro healings. I didn't appreciate them, you know? And I also truly didn't walk out as daughter, as child, childship. So ⁓ I'm looking forward to what's in store for us.
Nikki Humphrey (50:14)
Yes, my word of the year. You're gonna laugh. I haven't, I've dug a little bit in it, but I really have to get out the shovel and work with the Lord. It's expel.
Hope Mangiafico (50:17)
Ooh!
⁓
Nikki Humphrey (50:29)
E-X-P-E-L, expel.
So I think it's not only getting rid of in a dramatic way, because that's expelling, like it's kind of like violent, getting rid of those things that God doesn't want me to hold on to anymore. It's also like you had referred to earlier in the episode, hope is not holding back what God wants me to say. Don't put it through a filter, Nikki.
Hope Mangiafico (50:41)
Correct.
Nikki Humphrey (51:01)
If it's coming in, it's better be going out girl. Like you better expel my truth, my word, whatever.
Hope Mangiafico (51:12)
⁓ see, I I missed that part, but that makes complete sense.
Nikki Humphrey (51:17)
And
I did too, because I was at church and I got this word and I was like, we talked about this a couple of episodes ago, like sometimes your words not like yours is daughter, like you really like, like you said, put that graphic on your phone. And I was in a church and I got expelled and I was like, all right, Lord, thanks for giving me expel. And I'm like, well, what does it mean? And then he was saying like habits or things or phrases or like
things that you hung on to that you shouldn't in comparison, all those things that we just talked about. But then it was like, you need to expel, you need to open up your mouth and just let it rip tater chip because you filter so much of what I'm telling you to do.
Hope Mangiafico (51:50)
Yeah. Okay.
Mmm.
Nikki Humphrey (52:05)
That's the lens, but 2026, you better just start expelling it.
Hope Mangiafico (52:11)
That's awesome. That's so good. Ooh, fire it up.
Nikki Humphrey (52:15)
Yeah.
So here's another reminder, people, even if you don't doubt the power of your word, you have to sit down with God. And like I said, I still need to work a lot of that out with him, but just like that pops in if it's from the Lord.
He'll use it.
Hope Mangiafico (52:32)
Yeah.
Absolutely. A thousand percent. It will end up making some sense to you. You know, ⁓ for sure. So that's exciting. Woo! Yay for 2026!
Nikki Humphrey (52:46)
Yeah,
I got a closing encouragement.
Friend, you don't have to drag everything with you into the next year. Ask yourself, what has God already freed from you that you're still holding on to? What are you allowed to leave behind? And sit with him and let that wash through you and in you and do that whole house cleaning of your temple, your mind, your body, your spirit to get it.
Hope Mangiafico (53:17)
Yes.
Nikki Humphrey (53:18)
So you're moving forward in 2026, like Hope had said, with that clean space, that room to grow, that room to latch on to what God's right next step is for you. Isaiah 43, 18 through 19 says, forget the former things, do not dwell on the past, see I
am doing a new thing. People, friends, let him do a new thing in you this year.
Your hands don't need to be full of old burdens to receive new blessings. As we step into the next year, choose faith over fear, rest over striving and love over shame. Until next time, stay grounded, stay hopeful and stay equipped.
Hope Mangiafico (54:05)
We'll see you in the overflow.
Hope Mangiafico (54:07)
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